Equally Skilled

It's been a while since I posted. This song basically sums up everything, my thoughts and my moods, since the last post, and it was especially true this past Tuesday.

Equally Skilled
How miserable I am
I feel like a fruitpicker who arrived here
after the harvest
There's nothing here at all
There’s nothing at all here that could placate my hunger

The godly people are all gone
There's not one honest soul left alive here on the planet
We're all murderers and theives
Setting traps here for even our brothers

And both of our hands
Are equally skilled
At doing evil
Equally skilled
At bribing the judges
Equally skilled
At perverting justice
Both of our hands
Both of our hands

The day of justice comes
And is even now swiftly arriving
Don't trust anyone at all
Not your best friend or even your wife

For the son hates the father
The daughter despises even her mother
Look! Your enemies are right
Right in the room of your very household

And both of their hands
Are equally skilled

No, don't gloat over me
For though I fall, though I fall
I will rise again

Though I sit here in darkness
The Lord, the Lord alone
He will be my light

I will be patient as the Lord
Punishes me for the wrongs
I've done against him

After that he'll take my case
Bringing me to light and to justice
For all I have suffered

And both of his hands are equally skilled
At ruining evil
Equally skilled
At judging the judges
Equally skilled
At administering justice
both of his hands
both of his hands are equally skilled
At showing me mercy
Equally skilled
At loving the loveless
Equally skilled
At administering justice
Both of his hands
Both of his hands

Karmic Payback

It has to be. There is no other explanation. Today I got karmic payback for writing three poems yesterday. I sat and thought and thought and nothing would come to me. Nothing! Anyway, I'm going to post the other poem I wrote yesterday. If I can find it *rummages around in school bag while muttering something about how it was here earlier* Aha, here it is!

The doubts refuse to go away
I need You here with me
I call your name
Afraid You won’t reply

But soon I feel Your loving presence
You wrap Your arms around me
You draw me close
You comfort me

I hear Your voice
You speak to me
“My child why did you doubt?
Did I not promise you enough?”

I say “Please help me Lord,
In You I want to trust
Rid me of my unbelief
Keep me in Your arms”

This poem came to me in perfect timing because I was doubting (even though I wouldn't admit it to myself) and I was sitting there with my pencil in hand and the words just started to flow. Ok that sounds wierd cos I've never said it before but that is exactly what happened. Today was a good day. Boring but good. I felt better than I have in the past few days. I'll have to blog about it tomorrow cos it's late already.

Weary and bleeding
I need healing
Lost and confused
I need refuge

Though I feel unworthy
You take me in
Though I am dirty
You clean me up

Teach me happiness
Show me love
Teach me forgiveness
Show me mercy

Give me strength
Tell me I matter
Give me hope
Tell me I'm loved