Karmic Payback

It has to be. There is no other explanation. Today I got karmic payback for writing three poems yesterday. I sat and thought and thought and nothing would come to me. Nothing! Anyway, I'm going to post the other poem I wrote yesterday. If I can find it *rummages around in school bag while muttering something about how it was here earlier* Aha, here it is!

The doubts refuse to go away
I need You here with me
I call your name
Afraid You won’t reply

But soon I feel Your loving presence
You wrap Your arms around me
You draw me close
You comfort me

I hear Your voice
You speak to me
“My child why did you doubt?
Did I not promise you enough?”

I say “Please help me Lord,
In You I want to trust
Rid me of my unbelief
Keep me in Your arms”

This poem came to me in perfect timing because I was doubting (even though I wouldn't admit it to myself) and I was sitting there with my pencil in hand and the words just started to flow. Ok that sounds wierd cos I've never said it before but that is exactly what happened. Today was a good day. Boring but good. I felt better than I have in the past few days. I'll have to blog about it tomorrow cos it's late already.

Weary and bleeding
I need healing
Lost and confused
I need refuge

Though I feel unworthy
You take me in
Though I am dirty
You clean me up

Teach me happiness
Show me love
Teach me forgiveness
Show me mercy

Give me strength
Tell me I matter
Give me hope
Tell me I'm loved